This is gonna be…simple.

I leave in 11 hours. I’m freaking out. And I’m not completely packed.

XD

When you think that a friendship can end with someone, and it just end. That they not come back and hurt you.

Whats even funnier is when they follow you..Join the forums you make..pretend to be other people.

Its funny that those people get away with it.

Whats even funnier, is when you do a random check of IP addresses because you’ve had to ban a couple of people.

Then you take those IP addresses and go through your old forum’s DB and find that its the same person.

Then when you confront them about it, they act like they have no idea what you’re talking about.

Whats even funnier. Is when one of those people that are doing it, was someone you trusted with your life. Someone you cared so much about yet obviously you meant nothing to them.

Its also funny when you’re always made out to be the terrible friend, yet when the friendship ends, you leave them alone. You dont still visit their sites, you dont still try to talk to them, you just drop it. You dont go to other forums and make them all hate you. You dont pretend to be other people to see what they’re up to.

Yet they do?

The question is, what have I done to deserve it? What have I done to Nina, Ivan, Noelle and Angel?

I stopped talking to Ivan because he was telling Nina pretty much everything I said, and because I didn’t like being his friend anymore. It wasnt until later that I found out that the times that I thought we were friends he was going to others and making fun of what I was saying.

I stopped talking to Angel because she pulled away from me and it felt like she didnt want to be my friend. I later found out that while she was talking to me she was saying something completely different to others. Where she said sorry, she never meant it.

Nina and I stopped talking because she says I didn’t send her an ipod, yet I still have the receipt from apple.

I stopped talking to Noelle because she tried to kill herself and I blamed myself and couldn’t talk to her without remembering the pain I caused her. I thought this was where the friendship could end and I wouldn’t get hurt. I thought for sure she was the one person that wouldn’t hurt me just for the fun of it. Here I find out I’m wrong.

Maybe I’m wrong..but I don’t think the way those friendships ended, give them a right to still look in my life…to come to my forum to start drama and spam.

Especially from the one person that I trusted the most.

Though. Thanks. All of you. I’ll never trust another person ever again. I will never want another friend. I will never want to share my life with another.

So thanks for teaching me not to trust. Thanks for keeping me from getting hurt from people just like you.

However, I want to thank someone who has been there for me through all of you. who no matter how many fights we get into she still cares about me.

Alanna you are a dear friend that I truly do not deserve. You, like I, have your faults, but you’re always there when I need someone to talk. You have stuck by my side for so long, and I truly appreciate that.

And one last person, who has been there through two of them.

Lars, you have been understanding through everything. You’ve known exactly what to say and when to say it. You’re so much more then I could ever ask of you.

Ps. I leave in 4 days

Ohh! Angel tried to ruin my friendship with Alanna.

Alanna and I got into a fight.

Blah blah blah.

Isnt life wonderful?

So! I leave in…5 days. holy crap thats close. I can believe I’ll be in another country for two months o.o.

Anyways! updated the layout. I was getting tired of the other one. I wanted something simple. This is about as simple as it gets O.o

uhmmm other then that…Lars is having his test week..so I dont get to talk to him at like all while he’s at school(which really sucks ass…)

BUT! at the end of this week I leave america..(still weird to say that XD)

anyway woo thats about all I have to update you all on.

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something else to talk about I guess. It kinda pisses me off that i host people and actually do pretty much anything and everything I can for them, and then they tell people to go somewhere else.

Oh well once again…life sucks.

Guess I should get my hosting page back up :/