Tag Archives: EMB

Jun 26

Hello New wordpress

So I finally updated wordpress. Since it made me do it manually, it explains why I’ve not done it yet (right?).

However it and packing a bit today seem to be the only things that I will be doing because I’m in such a terrible mood. I have no idea why I am in this terrible mood, or even how it came about. I just know that I’m absolutely miserable right now. I don’t feel like talking to anyone (even Richard) and I don’t feel like doing anything. Right now my head is absolutely killing me, and frankly I think that it is making matters worse. Usually calling Richard will make things better.. or even talking to him will.. but since I got off work he’s been with friends. Oddly enough he’s still with them and its past midnight, which in all honesty, kinda pisses me off. The only time he ever stays up past midnight to talk/be with me is when we’re having a serious conversation. So yeah, that bugs me… but then again it could be because I’m looking for something to blame this mood on.

Its been “around” all day. The smallest of things have been setting me off, and all in all I feel like I’m “alone” in this world. Great day eh?

Blah I think that I’m just going to go do a manip or something. I seem to do my best graphics when I’m in the shittiest of moods. Maybe I’ll finish the theme that I donated for EMB since its been bloody forever. Blah I fail.

May 9

Sleep continues to evade me.

So its been more than a week. I’m sorry. For those that actually give a shit.

Anyway life. Work continues to be work. Tips are getting less though because more students are leaving, so after I’m done typing up this entry I’m going to go look for another job. So after these two weeks of 70 hour weeks, I’m going to go back to just 40 hours and get another job where I can work the other 30.

However it seems the more I work and the more I stay away from the online world, the less I’m attracted to everything that I used to love. It could be due to the fact that since I don’t have any real life friends, working keeps me from thinking about how pathetic my life really is.
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Mar 1

How I long for your embrace.

So many things to update on, yet it seems that I have so little time. So I’ll break this into pieces. Richard, Secret Project, Day to day life and then Everything online.

Richard

Things between Richard and I were touch and go for a while. I had started talking to an old friend. Someone who well, wasn’t all that good for me. He had been someone who had led me on for years, leading me to believe that we would be together. Being that I was young and immature I fell for him, and I fell hard. I know that I would have done anything for him before. However while dating Lars, Lars made it clear that he didn’t want Kevin in my life. Therefore I pretty much took him out of it. Actually to be fully honest with myself and with everyone, he took me out of his life, like he so often did.

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