I seem to only update to bitch about my life. I guess it’s the only place I can let everything out. But even then, I still feel as if I have to hold certain things back, because if I said all the things I was thinking, a few people that read this would either be pissed at me, or would stop talking to me.. *sigh*

I won tickets to the latest WVU game. Seems no one wants to go with me though. I called my mom, nope she has to finish her office. I called Lexi, she didn’t give me a no, but it seemed like I was going to get one anyway, because apparently Ryan is planning something this weekend with the rest of the group. Still, I asked Jessie, that was a no. I asked Ridge, that was a no. So awesome. I have free fucking tickets, (not to mention VIP Froggy Radio passes to their tailgating party (Free booze..)) but no one wants to go. So you know what? I’ll go to the game myself. Have an awesome time, and come home just to realize how miserable my life is because no one wants to go to a free game (Yet! They bought tickets to the last game which was cold, and wet.. but this one will be warm and dry…)…wtfe.

I told myself I wasn’t going to post this on my blog, but I really don’t care anymore. If everyone knows, then everyone knows. I’m moving out of the country. I officially have 85 days left in the USA. I’ve been sad about it at some points (when I think about the people I’m leaving) but then at the same time I’m not sad about it (instances like this football game..). But most of all I’m excited about it. I’m happy to finally be moving out, to actually being happy instead of confined to a country that makes me feel like an idiot. I’ll be challenged in life instead of just wondering around it trying to find my purpose. I’m taking classes to teach english as a second language, and once I get there, I hope to tutor others in english. I’m really really really excited about it.

My lease is up in this apt on the 31st. I’ll be moving in with Lexi and Ryan for November and December.. I’m scared about that. Mostly because I’m afraid that with the feelings I have now, that maybe it wont work.. maybe they’ll just decide they’re tired of me, and kick me out (had it happen before with someone I considered my second mother..) so.. i don’t know.

*sigh*

Last night was the launch party for the calendar that I worked on. I’m so excited to see my graphics in print! MY stuff was on this calendar.. MY stuff. AH! So happy. But the place that it was at was Bent, which is known for not letting ANYONE under 21 in. However they kinda fucked up last night hah! There was an under 21 list, in which they marked your hands.. and I was on it.. but I was also on the VIP list (Dude, just noticed.. VIP list here.. VIP tickets.. I’m a VIP :P) and he didn’t even check the under 21 list.. he looked at me and said “You are CLEARLY over 21″ Oh really? and gave me a wristband, and I got to drink. I only had two drinks, but still, it was awesome that I could.

But yeah, I believe that is all. Oh yeah Kay and Sky went to the launch party with me (thanks guys!) and Kay actually bought one of the calendars. I told him he would now have a little piece of me in his apt. to which he responded he could have a lot of me in his apt if he wanted to. XD

Anyway, I believe that is all for now. Maybe next time I’ll tell you how Sky took three of my virginities.