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Aug 2

August Goals

Describe in detail the goals you have for the month of August. List at least 5.

 

Five goals. Wow.

1. I want to pay off all the bills that I owe. With my recent bartending/waitressing job and sonic, if I try my best, this should be possible. I’m tired of skipping one bill one month to pay a different one. I absolutely hate living like this, so my goal is to pay them all at the same time, and continue to pay them all.

2. Get out of this emotional funk that I’m in. With Richard leaving I’ve realized how much my moods change throughout the day. I’m either giddy or super productive, or I’m down in the dumps about something. One of my goals by the end of the month is to get a better grip on my emotions.

3. Stop this damn acne breakout. Since right before Richard got here I’ve had this terrible acne breakout, and so I’m back to washing my face with sensitive face cleansers. I’m hoping that if I continue with it, that it will be controlled by the end of the month.

4. Do something different with my hair. Something honestly different. But first, I need to get the balls to do it. I don’t want to cut a lot off of my hair, but I’m tired of it being the same old style all the time. Its time for a big change, but that requires finding something that I like.

5. Most of all start actually putting money to the side to save for moving to Holland. Because of everything in the past year its been all but impossible to save anything for Holland..

 

In other news, Lars got back to me. His reply wasn’t something that I was expecting, but at the same time, after reading it, I completely understand where he’s coming from. I’m still unsure if we’re going to start talking again, but I have more to hope from now.

 

My phone also crapped out on me, or more so the sim card did. I could send text messages, and call people, but no one could call me or text me. It was absolutely pissing me off. But today after spending an hour (or so) at AT&T I finally got it fixed. I can now receive calls and text messages. I felt naked with a half working phone :/

 

I also bought a new pair of shoes! I love love love LOVE them to pieces!

 

That’s all for today ^_^

Mar 3

I don’t want to go down this road anymore.

Things between Richard and I have gone from better, to well… worse.

I’m not sure what to do anymore, I’m not sure how to react to things anymore… how to feel.. what to think.

About 2 weeks after I got home from Holland(about a month and a half ago.) Richard and I were talking about me coming back for Summer. Yes I know that was REALLY early to be talking about it, but ticket prices are a bitch and I’m not going to buy a ticket if I don’t have a place to stay. Well he asked his dad if I could stay with them. His dad said that I could stay for a month at most. We were really happy about that. Anneloes also told me that I could stay at her place for 2 weeks, so all in all thats 6 weeks. Which I was happy with. Sure I would rather stay 3 months, but I can deal with 6 weeks if its all I can get.

So I got really excited about it. I started watching ticket prices to see how much they would be. About 950$. I was hoping they would drop, so I was waiting to buy. After buying tickets so many times I’ve kinda learned hah. So while I’m waiting, Richard’s dad has a “talk” with him about me coming over. They then add that in order for me to stay there he has to stay at home (meaning take off work) the entire time because they’re uncomfortable with me staying there by myself.

This, I personally don’t get. It’s not like they don’t know me, it’s not like I’m a stranger. Not to mention, I don’t go snooping around people’s houses. Even when I was staying with Lars, I pretty much stayed in his room because I didn’t feel comfortable going around someone’s house without them there. Lars’ parents actually had to ASK me to leave his room and spend time with them. I can’t help it that I’m a person that keeps to myself.

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